Hey ladies and gentlemen, I am back yet again with another blog post.
As you all know the goal here is to be as transparent as possible and to relate to those around me, which will therefore in turn help and uplift any and everyone.
With that being said, I want to touch on a subject that in my community, meaning the black community, is not really touched on all that often. Which is, postpartum Depression. Now that is not to say women around me don't experience it, but NOBODY wants to talk about it.
Well, now is the time.
So recently within the last 2 months I gave birth to my 3rd child, a healthy, happy, beautiful baby boy named DeMarcus. My 3rd c-section, and as previously stated in my last blog post, my first vegan pregnancy. After delivery everything seemed to be going according to plan, I was dropping my baby weight feeling good and BOOM, this emotion came over me that I could not quite pinpoint what is was. As someone that prides themselves on being in tune with their body and the aura that I give off, this time, I didn't know what it was. I felt every emotion, fat, ugly, sad, irritable and overwhelmed. The only thing I didn't feel is the detachment from your baby as most women feel. As I sat in church service that Sunday morning, oblivious to my surroundings, the only thing I was aware of, was what was going on inside. I was LITERALLY a zombie. Crying uncontrollably for no particular reason at all. Then, it hit me. OMG, I have postpartum depression. I HAVE NEVER went through this before, the most I've felt is sleep deprived and as a mother, I'm all too familiar with that feeling. Now for me, I can say I was blessed, I only dealt with it for about a week, some moms can deal with it for weeks or even months and possibly have to be medicated. The only thing that got me through was God, I didn't physically do anything, its like as soon as I identified what it was, he took it away. I dealt with it long enough to know how it feels, to tell my story; but not long enough to become complacent. This just assured me, as I already knew, that HE can help us through anything, if we only let him. Don't become too comfortable with feeling this way, you CAN make it out. I have so much going on in my life, even me, one that has been chosen to help others, still needs that simple reminder; that I can't handle it on my own, we ALL need somebody. Don't ever think you're so strong that you can stand on your own, because, you can't. JUST LET HIM HELP YOU.
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MAY PEACE. FIND YOU. ALWAYS XOXO